I have been so sad for such a long time. I miss my parents so much and there is a hole in my heart that will never heal because of their passing. I feel guilty being happy but I know that’s what they would want. They enjoyed their family more than anything in this world and that’s what I need to continue doing.
Being Happy After a Loved One Passes Away
In just a few weeks it will have been an entire year since my dad passed and 20 months since my mom. It feels unreal, mostly I think because I try to block it out most of the time and not dwell on it. Which really is probably what they would want. I’ve been trying to be a good mom, a good wife, and a good person. I’ve been trying to remember that everyone has something, and being kind out in public is really the only way to get on in this world. Smile at someone in the store, make small talk with a cashier who is on her feet all day, say hi to the deliveryman and hold the door for him going into a building.
Living my life and doing things that make me and my kids happy is what my parents would want. I know they would not want me to be sad forever. But there is that part of me that will be. I just can’t help it. When you have amazing, caring and kind parents like I did (and I know I was very, very lucky), you just don’t go on with life, but find a way to honor them in everything you do. Love you forever and ever 5-spots.