It’s been a while since I’ve posted here, especially since I was doing it every day or so the last month. Baby has been sick and on top of waking up at night normally 4-6 times at six months old, she’s now waking up and can’t sleep unless she’s upright on my chest. While I am exhausted, I cherish the time I have with her as a baby. I know that I am so very very lucky to have my kids, no matter what the health issues, because they can still run and play and be children.
The news stations began showing photos of the children from the picturesque little town in Connecticut and I had to turn off the tv, those images burned in my brain. The sweet faces smiling at me with innocence and happiness that all children should have.
As a parent of children who have no connection to the families in Connecticut, I am wondering what we can do to honor these kids and remember them, especially at such a normally exciting time of year. How can we consciously celebrate the most wonderful time of the year when such tragedy is happening to others?
I look at my kids and I want them to know the magic of Santa, the excitement the night before he arrives, the overwhelming happiness seeing presents under the tree, cookies and milk gone, holiday breakfast in the oven. This is what I had growing up, which is why I just cannot give up Christmas, even when I married into a different religion. Christmas to me is about magic and wonder, helping others and being thankful for our blessings. We reach out to those people we love and those we don’t know. We try to instill a sense of merriment to as many people as we can, as long as we have the means.
How can we do that knowing what these families are going through? How do I continue to have fun with my kids, their excitement building, knowing there are parents and siblings in grief?
I am not writing this to make anyone sad or upset. I am sitting here at 4am looking at the Christmas tree and wondering how I can feel excited and happy in light of what is all over the news.
I just keep thinking about this and wondering how to feel okay with being excited about Christmas and being together with my family and that’s just the thing. I think the only thing to do is to embrace our families and give our children as much happiness as we can this holiday season. Do an extra activity. Eat an extra cookie. Listen to holiday music and dance with your kids. Put holiday sprinkles on your pancakes, brew potpourri on the stove, string popcorn and cranberries around the house.
Just do something extra. Hug your babies a little tighter, dance with them in the living room, read an extra book at bedtime, make room for bedtime snuggles. Something to make this holiday extra special for your family. appreciating all that you have, whether it’s little or a lot.